Author: cjefferson21

First, I want to start by saying how much all of the comments over the last few days have meant to me. I was beyond heart broken and was unable to say much about Bailey’s death. Also, it has helped me in dealing with the guilt I am feeling. I blame myself a lot. Maybe because we do not know what actually happened? But I feel guilty that I chose to do the surgery. I also feel guilty that I was at work Saturday. My husband was home with her all day and took care of her, but maybe if I had been here I would have noticed that there was a change in her once I got home. I also wonder if I missed any signs. I keep replaying the night over in my head. Sure, she was a little drowsy, but she just had surgery and was on pain medication. Yeah, she didn’t move much, but I thought it was because she had not adjusted to being down a limb. I did not encourage her to get up more than necessary. Did I miss a sign that something was terribly wrong? Was she trying to tell me and I didn’t pay attention? I even recounted the pain medication to make sure we didn’t accidently give her a tramadol instead of the anti-inflammatory (we did not). I also wonder if I should have refused the fentanyl patch. Was the medication too much for her? Was it a stroke? A blood clot?

There are so many questions that I will never get answered. However, I have to stop blaming myself. And I think reading all of the comments helped me to realize I did what I thought was best at the time. I was trying to help her rid her pain and infections. I made choices that I thought would help her quality of life. God had other plans.

We are trying to adjust as best we can with Bailey gone. My husband and I are still extremely sad. My son has adjusted quite well. I let him know that God needed Bailey to play with the kids in Heaven and that she had four legs again and was not having pain anymore. He seemed okay with this and tells people that Bailey went to Heaven and isn’t sick anymore.

Again, I want to thank everyone for the encouraging words and condolences. They were so much appreciated.

-Chrissy

It is with a heavy heart that I write this post. Last night My husband and I went to sleep at about midnight and woke up at 2am to find that Bailey had passed in her sleep beside us. We are unsure what happened as when we went to sleep she was okay.  I could speculate on the things that may have gone wrong but we will never know for sure. She’s in doggy heaven now where she can run on four legs and eat all the bunny poop she wants. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers this past week. May Bailey Rest In Peace.

Hey all! Just wanted to give an update on Bailey today. She’s definitely feeling good from her pain medications. Does not seem to be in too much pain. She has peed and continues to drink. However she is peeing on her dog bed a lot instead of going outside despite us taking her out. Still does not want to eat anything. She has gotten up and taken a few steps, but I don’t want her to push herself too much. Especially as she is still on the pain meds. Her breathing improved last night and is normal today. I actually had to work today but my husband was home all day with her. Still haven’t had the kids home to see her yet. Our great family has kept them occupied this weekend so we can let bailey rest. I’m on night duty with her tonight but her breathing is so much better. She is able to lay however she wants without any difficulty! We did call the vet because she was having some bloody drainage from her nose. Not a lot. They said it was expected due to the vomiting. So all is good today. Now if the neighbors would stop shooting off fireworks we’d be happier 😬

I will post an update at some point tomorrow!!

So after a very stressful wait, Bailey is home! She vomited after surgery when her they extubated her, And some came out her nose. She is still having some trouble breathing through her nose. They did do X-rays and her lungs were clear, no evidence of aspiration. We just need to watch her closely and make sure she does not lay down on her side as this makes her breathing worse. She’s been home for about an hour and a half. She snorts a lot and that is clearing her nose a little so she is a little better than when she got home. She is finally starting to drift off to sleep. It’s going to be a long night but my husband and I are prepared to stay with her all night to make sure she is okay. Typically she sleeps in our bed but we will keep her in the living room on her bed tonight so she doesn’t get up and fall out of bed. And the less comfortable we are the  better so we don’t sleep through her waking up! So, surgery day complete. We are one step closer to a happier bailey! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers today!

She has a snaggle tooth in this picture, and her tongue is falling out a little – the effects of anesthesia and pain medications 🙂

 

Today is Baileys surgery day. She is already off to the vets and will be having surgery after ten this morning. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers today!!